FIREWEED #75: THE MIXED RACE ISSUE

FIREWEED #75: The Mixed Race Issue

Edited by

Lisa Amin

Leah Lakshmi Piepzna-Samarasinha

May Lui

Reviewed by Jorge Antonio Vallejos

Being mixed race always has its challenges: isolation, language barriers, not fitting in, not being ‘enough’, and the many forms of racism that come with all that.

Every time I tell people that my mom is Peruvian and my dad is Lebanese I get:

1)    Exotic!

2)    Interesting.

3)    How did that happen?

4)    You look more…

One time a famous playwright of colour stroked my cheek and whispered “exotic” in my ear after I identified myself to him.

When I break it down even more (Mom: Indigenous/Spanish/Chinese + dad: Arab, moved to South America in his teens) I get the insult that people think is funny and acceptable: “you’re a mutt.”  It gets worse when I say my dad isn’t in my life, but I really don’t want to go there right now. 

Reading FIREWEED #75: The Mixed Race Issue was not only fun it was refreshing.  Its contributors wrote about a lot of what I have experienced over the years; and they wrote from the heart, holding nothing back, and well. 

Published in 2002 and guest edited by Lisa Amin, Leah Lakshmi Piepzna-Samarasinha, and May Lui, all mixed race women, FIREWEED # 75 was a follow up to a similar anthology, Miscegenation Blues (1994).  Amin writes in the intro, “This one is for the beige babies.”  It’s that and more.

Heinz 57 by Anne-Marie Estrada is my life story.  Except, I’m not Anne-Marie and she isn’t writing about me, she’s writing about herself.  A very short piece, Heinz 57 speaks to many of us mixies. Broken down into two sections, “HERE.” and “THERE.”, twelve questions Anne-Marie constantly gets are displayed throughout, many of which a lot of mixed race people get:

1)    Where’s your accent from?

2)    Are you…?

3)    Did you go to school in…?

4)    What do you speak at home?

5)    What do you eat at home?

6)    What do you know about your family?

7)    How did she come to marry a man from…?

Marie writes:

“When someone sees my name they think one thing.

When they hear my voice they think another.

Then they see my face and are mildly confused.”

Marie ends her short, fast paced, punchy piece with: “Because you just can’t tell by looking.”  True!

Jesse Heart has two pieces in FIREWEED #75: Pinky Rant and Really Not ReallyPinky Rant, a non-fiction piece, short essay really, possible Op Ed too, goes deep in a small space.  Heart explores race and gender and colonialism better than most academics in a concise, cutting manner.  Heart starts off with a solid slap to the ear:

“I think I am reaching a point of exhaustion.  I am tired of explaining…explaining my orientation…my identity as trans, as butch, as boi, as dyke.  Explaining my “origin”…?”

The explaining is tiring but not as bad as what Heart so beautifully calls “Colour fucking adjectives.”  Heart is referring to comments like “drunken native” when people find out about their Indigenous ancestry.  And then there’s the ogling on public transit:

“And if it’s not my “origin”, it’s the public debate I must witness, like on a fucking subway, “is that a man/dude/guy…or woman?…**giggle, giggle**”. 

Heart shines again in their simple yet poignant statements in Really/not really:

In her untitled essay, Lisa Weiner-Mahfuz (a half Arab and half Jewish woman) explores hypogamy, racism, the intersection of Zionism and racism, and the ever present racism in feminist/activist circles.  It’s deep, hard, honest, and sad. 

As a half Arab who doesn’t fit in with the Arab community I love Weiner-Mahfuz’s essay.  And I can see why it’s untitled; some things can’t be named or labeled such as many experiences in mixed race life.

Being a different shade of brown, speaking Castellano (dialect of Spanish) and not Arabic, raised by a single mom, eating South American food my entire life, and using my mothers Spanish-colonial surname has left me outside of the Arab box.  Trying to explore my Arabness in university I joined the Arab Student Association (really a Palestinian solidarity movement that has gone through many names and is now Toronto’s biggest Palestinian activist group).  Although I met some good people, every problem written in FIREWEED #75 surfaced: questions and explanations, lateral racism, misogyny toward female members, colour fucking adjectives, tokenism etc.  Weiner-Mahfouz had similar experiences in feminist activism and at a race conference.

While recently talking with another mixed race friend (Native American and Black) about not fitting in with the Toronto Arab activist scene she said, “You’re too Indian for them.”  I prefer the word Indigenous, and I identify my indigeneity as Mestizo (Indigenous and Spanish; read Gloria Anzaldua for a much more detailed explanation).  But I got what she meant.  How can I relate to middle to upper class Arabs, who speak francais and Arabic, and hang mainly with other academics involved in activism, many of whom are white skinned and pass in the white world?  I grew up with Blacks and Latinos and Persians, all of colour, who’s parents, like my mom, worked in factories, restaurants, hotels, and as delivery people and taxi drivers and janitors.  I’m one of two in my crew who have gone to university; more of us have been incarcerated!  I don’t think that’s a coincidence.  And most of the friends I have, old and new, mainly of colour, have never heard of Edward Said, Ward Churchill, bell hooks etc.; and they don’t care to. 

Weiner-Mahfouz writes of the exclusion she experienced in family circles for being both Arab and Jewish.  And she painfully writes of literally having a door slammed in her face at a race conference in Boston titled Race and Racism in the 90s:

“I raised my hand and asked where mixed race people were to go…The white women in the room, including the white facilitator, said they felt I should caucus with them because  I could pass for white.  Most of the women of colour concurred with this…

“The discussion proceeded with the facilitators spending ten minutes talking to the group about the privileges of being able to choose—as if I were not in the room…Finally, the group resolved that I could choose where to go…

“It was not resolved for me.  I felt alone.  I felt that regardless of where I chose to go it would be the wrong choice.  I felt like the illegitimate bastard child that no one wanted and/or knew what to do with.  Many of the women of colour were angry with me.  Many of the white women felt as if they had made an anit-racist intervention by challenging me on my racism.  Still as the group broke up, I made a choice and walked towards the room that the women of colour were to meet in.  As I approached the door it quickly slammed in my face.” 

Not only do I believe that most of the contributors to FIREWEED #75, and most mixed race people, have felt like Weiner-Mahfouz, but they’ve probably had real doors slammed in their faces like her.  I understand where the women of colour were coming from but that was cold.  Weiner-Mahfouz’s experience at the conference was horrible and one that continues today.  And so do all the problems laid out in the journal.  How far have we come along?

Weiner-Mahfouz poetically states that as mixed race peoples we are feard:

“We are feared because interracial relationships are still taboo in our culture.  We are feared because our mere existence often calls into question the status quo and the way that race is constructed in our society.  We are feared even by people on the Left who propose to be working to challenge these deeply rooted beliefs and constructs…We are not considered whole just as we are.” 

FIREWEED #75: The Mixed Race Issue has many brave, honest, entertaining and emotional pieces.  Karleen Pendleton Jimenez writes an erotic piece exploring her life as a white skinned Chicana and the complexities of skin politics in her dating life; Billie Rain’s essay title explains her piece: The Myth of the White Jewish Race; Lisa Amin writes about passing and failing as a mixed race person; Kim Trusty writes about her white mom; and there is so much more in this extraordinary and important collection.

Although we mixed race people are not considered whole, we are.  And FIREWEED #75: The Mixed Race issue shows that.

Tune in to Black Coffee Poet May 11, 2011 for an inclusive interview with FIREWEED # 75: The Mixed Race Issue Co-Editor May Lui.

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14 Responses to FIREWEED #75: THE MIXED RACE ISSUE

  1. christine luza says:

    thanks for posting this review, jorge!

  2. Lisa Weiner-Mahfuz says:

    Dear Jorge! Thank you for this review. I so appreciated your insights about this collection of writings. Sending you much solidarity and support around your writing and commitment to sharing our mixed lives and experiences with the world.

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  5. adrienne says:

    I am wondering where to buy or order this magazine. I have looked online and can’t find any info. Thanks!!!

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  7. Miriam K says:

    LOVE THIS.

    I highly recommend another zine co-edited by Leah Lakshmi Piepzna-Samarasinha called The Revolution Starts at Home: Confronting Partner Abuse in Activist Communities. It’s powerful, and extremely relevant.

  8. Jesse Raven Heart says:

    hey,
    good meeting you at the 519, Friday.I wish it was under better circumstances, And thanks for the mixed race fireweed review. 10 years ago! I can hardly believe it’s been that long. Your review made me want to pick up a pen and paper and write again. Old school, since computers still give me a bit of the wiilies and because I once lost an entire screenplay I was trying to put together. Blue screen of death. My fault for not backing up. A mutual FB friend just happened to post your review of that fireweed addition and that’s how I came across it; it really lifted my spirits and made me think about writing again. There was no better high then getting those pieces published. It even out ranked all the drag performances I id over the years as a king. So thanks. As a shy guy I just felt compelled to come up and thank you yesterday for the boost you gave me during a f^^k of a hard time. I really needed that lift.
    I’ll look you up on FB.
    JesseJamesB (Raven Heart)

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  11. Rose says:

    Thank you for this post!

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